Aagey se right.....or left?

Why does it happen that when you start looking forward to something, life takes a complete U turn and brings you at an intersection and makes you choose which direction you want to take?Just when you say to yourself "This is the way for me" and start planning on giving your dreams a shape, you begin to question whether those dreams were even dreams you dreamt or wanted to dream! How do you choose? How do you decide which turn to take? As I write this, I am reminded of a poster I saw long back of a beautiful baby with a finger on his left temple and the words 'Decisions....decisions' written on top. Looked cute enough then and we laughed. When I think about it, thats what we do all our lives isnt it? Make choices....make decisions. Some which work out ok but a lot which dont. And then we start a post mortem process to see where we went wrong and how we could have avoided it and how we can 'learn' from our mistakes! As they say in Six Sigma language, we do a 'root-cause analysis'. But what if after doing this so called 'quality' process proven by many big organizations worldwide, you realize that the cause was that either you were too practical or too emotional while making that decision, what do you do? Yeah sure, we decide we will start to create a fine balance of going with what our heart and mind says going forward. But the funny thing is that by doing so brings us to another decision point - the fine balance! How does one create that fine balance? How does one even KNOW what a fine balance looks like? Can we learn it from our parents? Can we learn it from our friends? Can we read up some books? Can we google it? In the last 30 yrs of my life I havent found answers through any of these. I have made choices, fallen down, picked up the broken pieces and started walking again. And I guess I will continue to do the same. But for how long? A very dear friend who I was talking to on the phone just now was raving about a rather pathetic movie called 'P.S. I Love You' which she apparently has watched (and I am not exaggerating!) a zillion times! She loves the concept and underlying theme of the movie which makes you think that life is too short and one should not wait to do things. I hate the movie from the bottom of my toes, but I just realized the same is true about decisions. What if I continue to make the 'wrong' decisions all my life? What if I keep falling down all my life and trying to walk? What if I am never able to run or even jog? Life is too short isnt it! So as I stand at this intersection in my life, I think of the beautiful baby with his finger on his left temple.....